So many times I have felt like the “joke” is on me. Only there’s nothing funny about losing a child or feeling like a fool.
Today happens to mark a point in time that I have painfully anticipated since losing you. When measuring the passing of time in days, this day is an equivalent to the worst day of my life. Today I have been without you for the exact number of days that I had you, yet you did not live your last day in it’s entirety and I in fact never even got to see you alive that day. It seems impossible to me that after today I somehow will have been without you for longer than I had you here. With this passing of time I miss you no less.
Today happens to mark a point in time that I have painfully anticipated since losing you. When measuring the passing of time in days, this day is an equivalent to the worst day of my life. Today I have been without you for the exact number of days that I had you, yet you did not live your last day in it’s entirety and I in fact never even got to see you alive that day. It seems impossible to me that after today I somehow will have been without you for longer than I had you here. With this passing of time I miss you no less.
